hey it runs!



custom made is the best

i feel out of place

but what the hell do i know?
im just a stupid junior in highschool

Current Location: home
Current Mood: sure whatever
Current Music: evanesence (thanks mudd)

some thing good for once, i got my computer working, a dual core AMD opteron. its very fast, and it runs well. next im upgrading my video card so i can play all the new kik ass games. i really want to play DOOM3, but i can never find it, everywhere is sold out dang it. ohwell, torrent time!!

my texan family came up here for a visit this week. i skipped school on friday to hang out with them, it was fun. me and michael are a couple of pyros and had fun starting fires and blowing stuff up. we even had some time to get a movie filming in. oh, and the last night they were here, we were hungry so we went and got some of what we called "tyler sized sandwitches" two of them fed the whole family. haha it was good.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: not depressed
Current Music: nothing right now

man i wish i had a dollar
or two
or three
or twenty

what the hell is up with school? why the hell do i care about what happined in the french revoloution? what the hell? is knowing about it going to help me in any way? is some guy going to come up to me and say "tell me about the french revoloution and ill give you a million dollars"? how the hell is knowing that going to make me succesful? school gets too far in the way of shit, i cant do anything anymore, i dont get to do shit with my friends because of school, i could be doing so many more productive things with my life, im tired of it. its bull. i DO NOT want to be here. since when did "learning" how to find 6 trig functions of a polynomial ever help someone? or when did not learning them hurt someone? i hate being stuck here with no controll of my life anymore, between mom (i freakin love my mom dont get me wrong)and school, im unable to do what i love. if you cant do what you love, whats the fucking point to anything? why should i work for something i dont want? why should i even keep going on if its taking me somewhere i dont want to go? someone please tell me how knowing the 6 trig functions is gonna help me if i decide to be a fabricator. please prove me wrong, i dare you. does anybody even know what the 6 trig functions are? dammit i hate this

i just want to give up

Tags: school is in the way
Current Location: home
Current Mood: what the hell
Current Music: blah

yea, i hate myself.. okay?

think too much,
you find yourself at fault
think too little,
you find someone else at fault

Current Location: home
Current Mood: nothing
Current Music: silence

this sucks, im stuck at home because mom feels like restricting me. ive wanted to go film this video for about the past month,and every single time my mom has had the same decision. she is starting to make me mad. i was really considering just taking off in my suburban and sleeping in the back of it somewhere, anywhere other than here. the only thing bad about that idea, is that its about 10 degrees outside. i dont really care though, i would do it.

we have a good filming location, but it isint exactly easy to get to. so ill have to wait untill my mom decides to let me go have fun. i havent been able to film or edit for awhile. my mom sticks me at home, while my sister hoardes the good computer that i put money into upgrading (videocard, Ram, HT ). i hate it, i love to film, but i am no longer able to do so. i am trying to get work, so i can buy gas, and help mom with things. and also so i can afford another computer that my sister will not be able to use so i can FINALLY be able to edit.

the worse part of it is, i finally get my liscense, which gives me the freedom to go places, and my mom wont let me use it. to tell the truth, i wasent planning on coming home afterschool today. sometimes i feel like i should just give up, but i know i cant, ive spent too much to quit.

Current Location: stuck at home
Current Mood: kinda pissed
Current Music: trans siberian orchestra